I need sleep. I'm so exhausted. If I'm not sleeping, I'm thinking of sleep. Working full time with two small children is a tough job! It is completely tiring having to wake up every 3 hours to nurse. Especially since this has been going on for the last 8 months! Amelia is such a bad sleeper. I can't say I remember a single night that she slept through the night. Even with napping, she'll take short cat naps lasting 45mins to an hr. Unfortunately, I am the enabler and allowing her to wake up and nurse because that is all I know to do. Honestly, whatever it takes to keep it moving along at 3am to get myself back to sleep! But I am pumping the brakes and plan on getting this baby to sleep through the night! Originally, I would put her in her crib and let her cry it out. She eventually learned to self soothe and suck her thumb and fell asleep all on her own. But with teething and brief growth spurt, I ended up bringing her to bed with me whenever she woke up, nursed her back to bed and eventually keeping her in bed with me (logically thinking I had to get up in 2-3hrs, anyways).
So here I am today, venting about the monster I've created. Piece of advice to new moms and moms t0-be: keep that baby out of your bed! It would help if she weren't in the same room as us, no doubt. Now that she's semi-mobile, when she's crying, I see her peeking her sad sad teary eyes over the crib side, reaching her wittle hands on the railing to pull herself up, begging us to please pick her up. (I know. Here I go again with the sympathy. So much for letting her CIO) My plan of action is to stick to our normal bedtime routine: bath, boob, bed but this time her own bed. And when she wakes up throughout the night, pat her little booty to let her know I'm here but I'm not going to pick her up! I really am going to try. There are nights where I'm ready to give up breastfeeding altogether but then I think of the bond we share when we're nursing and I'm not ready to give that up. Wish me luck! I'm going to start this tonight tomorrow :) On a lighter note, little miss princess has found herself a fake cry. She thinks she has us fooled.
